Is it just me?

You ever go for a while where you just kinda function and don't really think?  Wake up, get ready, go to school/work, do what you do, come home, dinner, tv, maybe sleep some.  Repeat.  It just keeps going.  Not good...not bad...just going.  That's about where I am right now. 

I can't remember what I ate for lunch or what I did today at work.  I know I was there and crossed stuff off my Thing-a-Doo list, but I couldn't tell you what. 

I remember being at the Clear Channel building and there was an alarm of some sort and I walked down the stairs right ahead of Jet.  (The lead singer has the waist of an anorexic 14 year old, he's very, very pale and he seriously needs to wash all that product out of his hair.)  But then again, that could have been yesterday...though I'm pretty sure it was today.  Perhaps it will be clearer tomorrow, unless tomorrow decides to blur itself into the haze that's covering my days. 

This is why I don't take drugs...or even drink very often.  I'm already out of touch.  Can you imagine me in an altered state?

survey for you!

1.You and Jesus go out to dinner - who pays?
I can't see making the Son of God pay for dinner.

2. You suddenly have to flee the country and adopt an alias what is it?
Maria Gonzalez...it's believable and there are millions of them. They'd never find me.

3. Pick one state in the U.S. to get rid of permanently?
Louisiana. I'm out of sympathy.

4. You wake up AS the opposite gender - what's the one thing you wanna try?
Peeing my name in the snow

5. Luke Skywalker or Han Solo?
han solo...older men are hot

6. Toy you always wanted but never got as a child?
EZ Bake oven

7. Top celebrities you have crushed on?
jon bon jovi, trent reznor, david gahan, anthony hopkins

8. What's an automatic deal breaker in a potential significant other?
history of violent crime, asking me to borrow money, incurable body odor

9. What is the last movie you saw that actually scared you?
Night of the Living Dead (the original)

10. Stupidest thing you've ever said out loud?
Ever? Can't recall. But just today I said, "I wouldn't do that in the depths of a crack smoking hallucination" to a client. DOH!

11. You're sentenced to death and its the morning of your execution. What's your last meal?
Luigi's BBQ chicken wings with fries, a 2 liter of Coca-cola, and a cheesecake with strawberries.

12. What's something that most people do that you've never done?
visit Disneyland

13. Before you die you want to go to...?
London

14. Something you'd really like to do but probably won't ever be able to do?
win the lottery

15. A wild animal you'd like to have as a pet?
dolphin

16. A drug you'll never try?
heroin.

17. If you were an animal, what would you be?
a fat housecat

18. If you had to marry someone you knew at the age of 12, who would it be?
no clue.

19. What's something most people don't know about you?
I had to practice smiling cuz ppl told me I always looked mad.

20. First celebrity crush?
Jon Bon Jovi....still want him

21. What's a weapon to suit your personality, habits and abilities?
a big gun with a silencer and laser aiming thingee

22. With whom did you share the most memorable time of your life?
My mom was there when Alex was born...though I wish she had been elsewhere.

23. Favorite breakfast bread style (pancakes, waffles, toast etc.)?
banana pancakes

24. Favorite parody movie?
Scary Movie

25. Worst way to die?
slowly

26. Grossest injury you've ever seen?
Michael's nasty leg

27. The worst injury you've ever had?
broken foot

28. Favorite thing about Thanksgiving?
food, family, not working

29. Sport you hate the most?
is nascar a sport?

30. What city in the U.S. do you want to visit?
new york, new york

31. What's something you think would be sweet to know everything about?
men.

32. Favorite Actor/Actress?
actor: anthony hopkins. actress: julia roberts

33. What's one phrase you absolutely detest?
I'm just saying

34. What makes an awesome party?
good friends, food, music

35. What's your material obsession?
used to be my cell.... I love shoes. lots of shoes.

36. What's something most would consider an insult, but you enjoy having said about you?
She's shameless.

37. What's something most would consider a compliment but you hate being said about you?
beautiful...

38. Favorite carnival food (everyone has one)?
corndogs

39. Morning or night person?
Night.

40. Worst drunken/drugged up habit?
singing

41. Weirdest eBay purchase?
a book of William Blake's illustrations for the Book of Job...it was gonna be a gift.

42. Favorite food to eat when you're wasted?
pizza

43. Its Saturday at 3am. Where are you?
probably sleeping

44. Who's your favorite friend to go out with?
Josh if he has money

45. Worst job you've ever had?
Arby's.

46. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
talking to strangers and, lately, assigning nicknames to everyone I know

47. Favorite cereal?
Cinnamon Life or Peanut Butter Cap'n Crunch

48. Book you could read repeatedly?
The Giving Tree

49. What's the meanest thing you've ever done?
Told the truth. It was evil.

50. Tell an interesting story about the last person to fill this out.
Once upon a time, (this story is made up, officer, I swear) Josh was visiting me in Texas. I wanted a doormat. Not just *any* doormat...a BIG, BLUE BLOCKBUSTER doormat. I eyed it covetously for months becuase in Texas, they kept them outside on the sidewalk. One night/early morning I pulled up to the Blockbuster and Josh ran out, grabbed the 4' x 6' mat, wadded it up and threw it in the back seat. Then he jumped in the car and yelled, "Drive! Drive!!!" We then drove back the apartment and spent 15-20 minutes emphatically wiping our feet and cracking up hysterically.

Show review

The Goo Goo Dolls.  They sang the hits and put on a decent show.  Good audience interaction.  Their background stuff was clearly low budget.  They need to talk to the sound crew who had the singer's mic on 2 for most of the first song.  After that was fixed, they sounded good.

The Counting Crows.  Hmmm.  They mighta spent a tad more on their stage set up.  The lead singer had a frightening amount of white in his dreadlocks and was also sporting a pot belly.  He sounded good, but they changed up the songs way too much.  ""Murder of One"" was turned into some kind of performance piece you'd expect to see at an artsy coffee house in a college town.  He was fluttering his arms as he was feathered by the moonlight.  Odd.

It was fun.  It was free.  Each band played just over an hour.  eh.  Neither band is Bon Jovi.  I give the whole show a 7 out of 10.

I've been good, dammit!

To the best of my information, knowledge and belief, I have not been  a major butt...or even just a butt.  I don't know what prompted that question, but honestly, I've been keeping to myself and minding my business.

I was deleted from several friends' lists on messenger.  I thought it odd, but ok, we don't have to chat.  I have plenty of people who want to know what I'll say next and happily converse with me.

I have friends of never-were-really-friends following me in cyberspace.  It's fucked up, but it's ok.  Watch me, if it amuses you.  I can also recommend some hobbies, if you have that much free time and energy. 

I'm being mindful of all 10 commandments, I try to moderate my indulgence of the 7 deadly sins and I even practice a beatitude every now and then.

I've tried to keep the positive people in my life close and closed the door on the negative.  I just don't have the time or energy to be bothered with negativity.  I'm making an honest effort to be a better person.  It's paying off in a lot of little ways...that's not why I'm doing it, but I have definitely noticed.

If at any point you think I'm being a major butt or think I have butt-like motives, please feel free to discuss these issues with me at any time.  If all you have is bitterness in your heart, I will pray for you, but please do not invite me into the drama you allow to pass for your life.

Friendship

I feel like a bad friend sometimes.  I mean to call...really, I do.  I'll do it right after dinner, after this show, after I wash my face after...it's midnight? 

Well, I can still call Scott; he's up.  He's a good friend.  He won't mind.  But I have to get up early and I haven't called in so long we're bound to have a 4 hour conversation.  I'll call tomorrow, after dinner, after.... And I'm sure he's got the same stuff happening and taking care of the business all hours.  It kinda sucks that I can't just clear a Friday, show up at Buddy and Pals...end up singing Jovi at his condo till the sun's coming up.

Tina had a baby?  Tina had 2 babies???  Holy crap.  Where was I? 

Gina is M.I.A.  When my phone broke, it ate her phone number.  Then again, I called her before it broke and she never called me back.  I know she meant to...come on,  since first grade. I'm sure something very dramatic is happening in her life...that's when she goes into hiding.  I'm sure she had a dream about me.  She always does right before I find her again.  I'm gonna go dig through papers.  I know I have her numbers somewhere. 

Knowing I can pick up right where we left off is comforting.  I know that I can call whenever, talk about whatever and it'll be just like always.  No matter how bad....but while things are ok,  I should get off my ass and be a friend anyway.